Finding a balance between totally freaked out and totally cool, calm and collected

Who knows if a balance is even necessary.  Since my last post, I've gone from "meh" to HOLY SHIT IT'S HERE.  And thank goodness for it because I really felt like something was missing until I got that warm and fuzzy OH SHIT feeling when doom looms.

Studying is not easier; I still feel like I am learning things.  This is not encouraging.  But, some things are becoming clearer and making more sense.  I still am between the 50-60% on the subject MPQ sets; but I've stopped caring about that.  I tend to do extraordinarily better on the mixed subject (with the exception of the simulated MBE) so I am hoping that I continue this trend into the Bar Exam. 

I also recognized that I have an analysis problem.  Many times I will incorporate analysis/conclusions and the whole paragraph does not make sense.  I've decided to attack this by adding an extra sentence -- so, I will restate a material fact, and then follow that with a sentence explaining how that fact determines the issue.  I have no idea why it took my three years of law school and 6 plus weeks of bar prep to learn that, but I finally have.  What gives me hope is that many of the sample answers on the California Bar Exam website are also bad at analysis; so if I slip up, hopefully it won't be the end of me.

I am concerned about certain subtopics in subject areas -- character and impeachment for evidence, parol evidence for contracts, strict products liability for torts, etc.  Blah blah blah. 

I am unsure how valuable the Barbri commentary is; it will often state that if an issue was missed in a particular essay, that the essay would not receive a passing score.  How does Barbri know this?  Is it from the students essays that did not pass the bar exam that take Barbri again?  I wish I knew the answer.  Because I am still missing stuff, vital or not. 

Anyway...two things keep me going at this point:  (1) This is the last hurdle I need to jump before I become a real lawyer, my dream and (2)  I do not want to take this stupid Barbri course again. 

I am absolutely not one of those freaks who gets up early and studies before class, does 100 MBE questions, 10 essays, studies some more, then passes out just to do it all over again the next day.  My whole motto this go around is to try to really learn the law, understand the law, and apply it appropriately.  I want to get this stuff more than I want to fit three years of studying into 2 months.  So that's been my approach -- while sticking to 85%-90% of the Barbri plan. 

Alright...back to it.